What do I think about myself? Damn!

What do I think about myself?
That was the teacher's question last wednesday morning when I was thinking about frogs and flowers [yes, my last class was biology]. When i thought the question fast, I can answer it very easy, something like, "I'm a simpatic teenager, that loves the nature and the music, although a sensitive girl that loves the love". but when I answered it, the teacher told me something like, "Ivonne, you need too much words to describe yourself, you can't think only that adjectives about it"... In that moment i thought "DAMN! I NEED HELP!!!".

Well, wednesday night i went to "Faro de Bucerias", is a beach where the turtles put out their eggs and little turtles born. I got back yesterday morning. In that time I thought about it so much, what do i think abot myself????? Probably i'm going to write complicated things that even in spanish I can't explaine very well. So here we go!

I am Ivonne, I'm 16 years old and my birthday is in 3 days, my birthday is the most important day in my year :D. My favourite colors are purple, green, pink and brown... even I love all the colors together. I think I'm a sweet, sensitive girl... very sensitive i cry for practicaly everything, movies, music, histories, books, when someone ignore me... everything D: ..... I love drama! but when I'm joking with my friends, like, -OMG I'm going to dieeee!!!!- and I just sneezed, or something like that. I love to have friends but i can't make it easily, I'm shy and I work hard to talk in public, but when I do it I feel really really free. I'm very patient but i can't stand people don't wanna study or work, just wanna have fun and drink or smoke... I think are empty lifes and empty minds. 


I think i'm a happy person and I'm without alcohol, boyfriend or cigarettes. I'm a musical girl!!!!!!!!!!!!. I can't live without music, also I can't live without my mom... my family is SO important for me, i can't imagine my life without them. I love help people, i don't expect anything as a "pay". Sometimes I get apart of the society because i really like to be alone, is the only time i can spend on myself and think clearly what i really want to do, or how I can answer a problem, although when i'm alone i understand too much things and i can see who really loves me or wants to be with me.

Since I was a baby i sleep with my soft blue pillow, I CAN'T sleep without it, i call it Blue ?, some people told me that it reflects that I'm a insecure girl, but I only think that that pillow is special for me. Even I can't throw out my Barbies and dolls, I feel terrible just thinking it! I can't understand how other people can give it away their things :S
I think i'm a responsable girl, i feel terrible when i miss up something, at school or in my house or everywhere D:! I love candies and presents but you get my heart with just one hug or smile for me :) I love details.


hmmm I'm not a religious girl, I even don't believe in God.... Everybody told me that I looks like a very religious girl, I'M NOT!. why? very easy, but a long history. The point is that I don't believe in anything, just the things i can feel, see, touch, hear, smell.... I'm alive, and I don't know if after I'm not, I'm going to live again, so I live with all my forces.


I think I'm strong and stronger everyday, and probably tomorrow I'm going to be stronger than today. I get sick very easy.... I'm sick for all my life since I was 3 years old, I am delicated, some people tell me that they don't believe me, that I'm a lier, it hurts me but just my family and me knows all the pain I have been feeling all my life... everyday I wake up healthy I try to make the most, always.


I hope you comment something. Best wishes! :3




And in honor of my birthday, the song of the week is........... I'm not twenty :D Enjoy it!